Posted by B2chica on September 3, 2004, at 13:51:40
In reply to Dealing w/ pain emotion after T session, posted by Skittles on September 2, 2004, at 18:59:45
Actually, i'm not going to be any help here but i Wanted you to know you are NOT ALONE with this. When i first started i would go home from my appt. (3-4pm) and journal, then about 7:00 like clockwork i would FREAK OUT. hysterical crying exhaustion (i would normally SI then) and then i would just cry myself to sleep. this happened for months. I never really got advice from my T on how to stop this.
i can tell you it does still have it's days but it's better. my responses afterwards are 1)not as severe-except on extreme days, 2)and are closer to right after the session.
i have planned my T sessions about 3 in the afternoon so that i don't go back to work and everyone knows Tuesdays i don't plan ANYTHING! many times i go home and journal and then just fall asleep. this happens most of the time i usually sleep from about 4:30-9:30-10:00 i get up maybe eat or watch a little (non serious) tv then go back to sleep.
It's frustrating cuz i think if i stop going i'll be better. I know i function in life SO MUCH better when everything is pushed down. The problem is the adult me knows this isn't good for me and (that stupid beeyatch) won't be quiet. she won't let me cancel or quit my T.
I'm kinda glad she puts her foot down, cuz there have been many many....many times i've wanted to just quit my T. and i have told him that to. So even though you may feel it. Please hang on, don't stop. at least not yet. Don't quit when it hurts, quit when it no longer hurts to go.(meaning you have exposed AND dealt with what you need/want to)Ok, sorry this rant was about me.
please know you are NOT alone. and 1)you are doing something that is just for you, something no one else will do for you. You are incredibly strong to get this far...keep it locked. Say to yourself that you can not miss a T appt. even if you want to, tell yourself that if you don't go-bring over a journal or poetry diary for your T to read during your session even though you may not be there. (this gets me everytime cuz i think-i don't want to pay if i'm not actually there) so i go. It's one of those things that i know if i stop going 1)i won't start again 2)if i'm LUCKY i'll end up in the hospital....please take care and i do LOVE gg thoughts on rewarding yourself after your session. In fact i have realized that i think i do that by giving myself Tuesdays. No FAMILY obligations, no SPOUSE obligations, no WORK (well after session anyway), no SCHOOL. Tuesday is all about/for me. to journal, draw, paint, watch movies or just sleep. whatever it is, its just for me.
Great thoughts GG.Take care ((((((((((Skittles))))))))))
here's super hugs and cyber strength to you. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>b2c.
> How the heck do you manage it? I finally went below the surface level stuff with my T and bawled the whole session, as I was writing her check, and all the way out to my car, etc, etc. It's been a couple of days and I can't sleep, am not hungry and if I try to eat, it won't stay down. For the most part, I've been able to distract myself from the crying (still can't eat or sleep). While I was reading in bed earlier, I noticed a tear run across my nose and I hadn't even realized I was crying. I felt far better than this BEFORE my session. I'm thinking about canceling and just stopping this b/c I can't open this flood of emotion and go home and deal with it alone b/w sessions.
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