Posted by daisym on August 7, 2004, at 14:25:15
In reply to Re: Oh... (((daisym))) please.........., posted by 64bowtie on August 7, 2004, at 2:04:22
Can't debate this with you right now. Struggling too hard to not fall apart completely to be coherent. But will say that the practical aspects of what you are asking me to do mean letting go of my family -- not having their love, such as it is. I don't see how going unconnected and unloved can contribute to my happiness.
It isn't the memories that hurt per se, obviously...it is the ramifications of all of it...being unlovable, being so bad that you got left, never being good enough, still, to this day...wanting these people to say they are sorry and to love you no matter what and who you've become.
I don't need you to validate my pain. You are just one more person telling me I'm suppose to shrug my shoulders and say "Oh, well" and keep going. I'm trying.
No response needed.
poster:daisym
thread:374592
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