Posted by Dr. Bob on August 6, 2004, at 22:42:29
In reply to Borderline Personality Disorder/Effexor/Suicidal, posted by Corafree on August 5, 2004, at 18:56:07
Posted by corafree on August 6, 2004, at 4:46:18
> Living has become a daily nightmare this past week and a half. Since I have borderline
> personality disorder, it is time to begin DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy). My
> therapist told me I had to be absolutely sure ??? I could go to both sessions a week, one
> w/ her and one w/ the group. Since my last doc w/ the God syndrome, whom I will no
> longer see, said I was noncompliant (It was becaue I was in the midwest watching my
> father die!), I have become noncompliant. That was one of his reasons for taking me off
> Klonopin. I was on six a day. Now, I AM missing appts., all kinds of appts. My anxiety
> level has gone way up, beyond what two Klonopin can even touch, and I can’t go
> anywhere and am agoraphobic. The system I’m in hasn’t even appointed me a new doc
> yet. I am either in physical or emotional pain constantly and suidical ideation is at its
> greatest. The will and the way are literally worked out. My therapist said that if I failed
> to comply w/ DBT it could be very bad for me. I am so undescribably scared and fear (I
> HATE FEAR) is ruling me. Still my fam of origin does not show that they care about my
> illness, as did my father. My children love me so much that they are even willing to let
> me go if I can no longer stand living. My caseworker says ‘don’t sabotage yourself.’ but
> I am. HELP! Please help me hang on. I don’t know how to go it alone anymore! I need
> you all so very much. cf
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