Posted by gardenergirl on July 2, 2004, at 20:37:07
In reply to Re: Daisy! I got a writing assignment! » gardenergirl, posted by mair on July 2, 2004, at 9:55:11
You both make a lot of sense. I get embarrassed about it, too, and I'm sure my T notices what I forget and interprets it, at least to himself. I was thinking it was a defense, as well, but it makes sense that with that intensity, especially of the feelings, that it would be hard to remember the verbal stuff.
My T takes no notes. I don't know what kind of documentation he does between sessions, either, although at times I am curious. Not enough to ask and want to see, but curious still. I think it would drive me crazy if my T read back to me from prior sessions. Especially because he is so keyed into exactly what word you use, while I tend to get the gist of things. I think it could come across to me as kind of smarmy. But then my transference is shifting to one where I keep thinking he is disappointed in me somehow. So forgetting topics feeds into that as well.
Daisy, I try not to think about how I sound. But I hate crying through the entire session. Blowing my nose and all. Yuck! I feel like such a baby. But then, I suppose that makes sense given how primitive my hurts are.
Thanks for your input. Gives me something to think about...which is good.
gg
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