Posted by Bent on June 24, 2004, at 14:23:59
In reply to Therapy heartache, posted by Bent on June 24, 2004, at 7:50:38
Thanks for all your support. I don’t know why I am making it such a big deal to call her. It’s like I am afraid to. One minute I feel like I can handle the next several weeks alone just fine and then another minute I want to fall apart.
I have a hard time in therapy asking for what I need and being open so many times I will bring along what I have written about an event, or usually about our relationship. My writing is “uncensored” and shows more ‘raw’ emotion than just talking to her, when I can avoid details that are too difficult. Writing about the anger, the hurt, and the way she handled this has helped me today but I wonder if it will last through the four weeks. I’d kinda like to not call her but just share all this with her when she returns. I don’t know if this is a good idea…or me avoiding her.
All this transference/attachment stuff really makes want to run from therapy altogether, but I guess it happens for a reason, and while I have a therapist who doesn’t see it as a bad thing I should try to work through it. But will it ever end?
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