Posted by DaisyM on June 4, 2004, at 18:43:09
In reply to OK, I didn't quit . . . (long), posted by Aphrodite on June 4, 2004, at 13:36:54
(((Aphrodite)))
I'm really, really sorry. I can't imagine how much it must hurt right now, with the final straw being he didn't call back. Is there anyway he didn't get the message yet? Or, could he have misinterpreted it...like you were going to be away or something? I use to leave messages in my "professional" polite voice and my Therapist would be shocked to find out how awful I was really doing.
I'm worried about your self-description of unstable. Do you feel you can keep yourself safe? Is there anyone you can talk to about how bad you feel, even if not your private issues? I know you don't want to hear this right now, but I think you should consider finding another Therapist. Maybe one with trauma experience who knows that often "cold and clinical" descriptions cover up HUGE amounts of hurt and pain. And one who can allow you to feel really intense emotions without backing away.
I think there are two different ways Therapists deal with this stuff...some see no value in revisiting it and work very directly with coping skills and feeling better. Others feel that talking about it, feeling it and finding a way to integrate and live with it, is the right approach. I don't think there is a right or wrong way, just what works for each individual. Your Therapist does sounds like he is one of those who doesn't want to walk through it but is instead concerned about making you feel better about it, doing the guided imagery with you.
Please take good care of yourself right now. Try to avoid too much stress and do gentle things for yourself, like going to a movie or listening to music.
And post if it helps. Or email.
Daisy
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