Posted by Chucky Adkins on April 5, 2004, at 18:41:06
In reply to Re: who has hugged there T's? or anything else?, posted by Dinah on April 4, 2004, at 22:41:55
Hello all:
I've been reading your material since last week and find it to be comforting. Last week, about my 5th session, I stood to leave with an intense hard-on. I had a semi before, and I realized that when she shows unconditional concern for me I am somehow erotically turned on. She's attractive, but I've been in these sessions to get better. Ok, maybe I have thought about her just a little sexually, but that's natural for me. I've got more serious issues and put that right out of my mind. I'm married too. But last week, she was staring at me again. I told her that I don't like it when she stares at me. She said that it was because she cared about me and the issues we were discussing are serious enough that she looks at me intensely. She likened her deep looks at me to those of my wife and said that I don't find anything unusual about her looks and wanted to know why I found her caring looks unusual. This conversation made me even more aroused. I liked that I have this person who "cares" about me. I told my T that what had transpired felt very weird. She smiled and ended the session. I wanted it to go on for another hour and at the same time couldn't wait to get out of her office. I felt like I had betrayed my wife yet I've done nothing but think about this woman (my T) since. It's so strange. This doesn't happen to me. From all that I have been reading, I feel like I am about to embark on this journey with this woman for an hour a week. It's like having an affair without the physical part and it's the one place I'm aloud to do it. How should I share this with her if at all? Will she terminate if I let her know how I feel. Is it really possible that I could fall in love with her? There must be some amazing benefits from all of this. It seems so personal, more personal than I've been with anyone my entire life. I'm nervous as hell. Needless to say, when I stood to leave, it was obvious that I had been turned on somehow. I could never give her a hug under those circumstances.
poster:Chucky Adkins
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