Posted by DaisyM on January 23, 2004, at 15:25:35
In reply to Re: Admitting Thoughts » DaisyM, posted by Karen_kay on January 23, 2004, at 14:28:53
Karen,
I've been following things (above) some and if I could be really bold -- I think when it gets hard in therapy for you, you find ways to undermine your trust and respect for your own Therapist (Case in point: refering to him as Bubba? Come on...)
I know that what you really believe, down deep, is that he has/is helping you. I know there have been slips but in the overall picture, you believe he is the correct guide for you. I know you have good reasons to be angry with him for past things, hospitalization is one of them. But, he acted in YOUR best interest, don't you think?
I must say that I'm glad my Therapist is older and has so much experience. But I'm older (NOT THAT OLD!!)My son's Therapist was pretty young though, and I loved him. So it is about matching.
So, how did it feel to tell him? In the moment, like it was the most normal thing in the world. He made me feel like he totally understood and even expected it. Later, thinking about it, it was scary and embarrassing. I don't know if I will bring it up again (the conversation) but my guess is that he will. I still can't figure out how we got there from the dream - I thought I was better at hiding parts of myself. Now that I might tell him. I would never have drawn that out from my dream. I almost didn't even tell him about it. I did note that it was interesting that he was absent from such a scary dream, even as an observer. He said he thought that meant that I'm still not really convinced that he can "rescue" me from all the pain...which is true. But, then again, I don't think anyone can.
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