Posted by Medusa on January 11, 2004, at 14:16:02
In reply to Re: Therapist self revelation » psychlover, posted by Dinah on January 11, 2004, at 13:34:43
thanks Dinah. I enjoy reading these threads, who knows why, and I didn't take the admonitions of the previous poster really seriously. I think most posters here are pretty aware of the dynamics involved.
The therapist who's being trained on my case is really really opaque. I'm not sure how much of that is because I've demanded it and how much is her training - she doesn't want to get shot down by her reviewing team. (They watch the whole thing by remote +and+ the session is videotaped.)
I happen to like "opaque" in this case ... not sure what it says about me that I'm not curious about her. At all. Is that scary? X and I were discussing our respective growth situations, and he was curious about how old she was. (Probably his age, but I hadn't thought about that before he asked.) In the same conversation, I realized that she often wears pants that resemble pants he often wears, at least in fabric, but I don't know if they're the same ones. (I mean every session, not the same pants he wears!) And she wears amber and silver jewelry, which is the sort of thing I notice on +everyone+ since I seem to be programmed to pick up on people's styles and preferences. I tend to be able to pick presents pretty well ... and in reading a previous Perfect Patient thread, I realized if I had any desire to give her something, I'd probably be able to pick out jewelry that she'd like.
During the first session, I sat so that I was facing the camera. I wanted to be able to get an impression of WHY I've gotten weird (to me) reactions from so many therapists ... and I thought that I could double-check that by seeing videos. Well, she made a face when I said something, so since then, I've been sure to sit so that she's facing the camera, in case she ever makes a face and I want to discuss it and she denies. No faces since then. (I'd said that I used to dress inappropriately, and had made big progress by getting it together to some degree. I don't think she really believed me, for whatever reason.)
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