Posted by DaisyM on December 19, 2003, at 10:34:49
In reply to Re: I'm angry - semi-long rant » DaisyM, posted by Poet on December 19, 2003, at 9:54:25
I spent a lot of time last night processing all of this -- thank you all for the posts, good questions and great support.
I've moved from angry to that invasive sadness that feeling oh so alone in the world brings.
I've come up with 2 things. My response wasn't rational, it was probably based on my want (need) for someone else to deal with my life for awhile - too much sickness and too much stress. And he didn't. He actually did to me what everyone else does: I have a problem (insurance) could YOU call and fix it for me. And of course, I said yes. It wasn't that this was an inappropriate request, it was just that I didn't expect it from him, right at that moment. I'm sure he didn't realize -- how could he?
The other thing is that I'm sure I'm projecting my anger at all of this on to him. I think. I've been asking myself what I want from him, and what can I realistically expect. I've had this whole conversation about all the unfixable things in my life with him in my head.I went from I'm quitting therapy to I'm cutting back to this is ridiculous, last week I was having a tizzy because he might quit on me! (My fear, not his intention). I'm just so confused.
I don't know. I have to go get my kid from college, the dorms close this morning. I'll think about it some more and try to get clearer. Any experiences with out of proportion anger would be helpful.
-D
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