Posted by Dr. Rod on November 29, 2003, at 0:30:16
In reply to Memory, posted by Dinah on November 26, 2003, at 15:44:40
Piaget 100 years ago implied that memories were different for children under 10 and those over 15... Recently, computer aided research backs up his notions... NLP investigated color in memories and discovered children see incidents in color, which digress to black and white after about 4 days... Our research with drug and alcohol abusers indicates that black and white memories also are the residue of extreme trauma... If memories change from black and white to color, we intuit that the child "Colorized" (ala Ted Turner) the scenes to increase importance of themselves or the lesson learned by the incident...
When pre-teens pass through the genetic upgrade period, able to now conceptualize in three dimensions, always remember and dream in color, and store memories as pictures instead of feelings, some memories are filled in wrong during the transition... This is a theory of why memories always seem to have missing pieces when surrounding trauma, real or imagined...
Memories acquired in a delusional or dissociated state will be a mixture of real and imagined... Sad to say that your story sounds much like this... You witnessed part of it, delusions filled in some, and the rest you have tried to fill in with induction of imaginary facts and opinions... This is my experienced guess...
Sometimes the quest for knowing "why" serves as a distraction for the undisciplined impulsive mind... Your gut tells you that you have a right to know and you won't be "whole" until you do know...
You will be whole when you know you are "enough" to handle tomorrow better than you handled yesterday... What you are reluctant to accept is that you've always been "enough"... Your grumbling and obligatory thinking cloud your vision from seeing this truth about yourself...
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