Posted by judy1 on November 28, 2003, at 14:18:10
In reply to Re: Memory » fallsfall, posted by Dinah on November 26, 2003, at 20:16:11
Almost all of my childhood memories share the same pattern as yours- some parts are very clear, others are blurry, or totally repressed. Mine definitely involved sexual abuse (that's clear and supported by siblings), so it only makes sense to repress such painful memories. I (and my shrink and therp) all feel that when the time is right I'll open up, that pushing me only increases self destructive behaviors. I guess I've always gotten the impression (although you've always denied it) that there is a lot more that you are repressing- mostly the way you respond to things and the SI, dissociation, etc.- just are so similar to my behaviors. Maybe you just aren't ready to confront the past in its entirety (I most certainly am not), and maybe you just need the continued support of your therp until/if you ever get there. I wonder how much your past colors your present, and if not- do you need to go there? Sorry for the rambling, these are all questions I ask myself and I'm probably guilty of 'transferring' :-) some to you.
take care, judy
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