Posted by mair on November 13, 2003, at 14:49:08
In reply to Re: How do you gear up for sessions? » mair, posted by judy1 on November 13, 2003, at 10:20:00
Judy - I used to tell my therapist that the only reason I was there was because I was too polite to just not show up. Basically I am forced to go by my own inaction. By the time I've finished hemming and hawing about whether I should cancel, it's too late to cancel.
I used to particularly hate going there and not being able to talk because I was just too resistant to opening up. The silence just felt so uncomfortable and I sort of felt like a cornered animal looking for a way out. And really I'd seize up sometimes which prohibited me from thinking very clearly anyway, so by the time I was ready to say something, I'd have forgotten what her question was. I still do alot of clock staring and sometimes I can't leave fast enough. On the other hand, as I mentioned in my last post to Dinah, she and I have hashed all of this out so much that I've come to be slightly more comfortable with my own discomfort. And lots of times she'll start out by asking how I feel about being there so she anticipates when it's going to be difficult.
Mair
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