Posted by aloe on November 8, 2003, at 17:41:36
In reply to Re: what exactly defines an emotional breakdown?, posted by Jai on November 7, 2003, at 18:58:59
I actually have not tried EMDR. I just started talking to this psychiatrist in July. My insurance required I be evaluated by a psychiatrist who then had to refer me to a counselor, etc. He was the only one on my insurance list who could fit me into their schedule for the next two months. Obviously I went because who wants to wait over two months when they feel like their world is falling apart, but he never referred me to anyone else. I just see him every week. Now that I'm getting the hang of things I realize that I don't feel like I can open up to him. I don't think he understands what happens when i'm not in his office. A girl that I work with recommended a therapist that she does EMDR with. I'm planning on giving that a try in January when I have a new insurance plan. I'm not too familiar with EMDR, though, so it's nice to hear from someone who has had a positive experience. Thanks! :)
I also picked up the book Undercurrents (thanks Daisy) while i was out today. I never thought of my mental outlook/condition/whatever as abnormal. It's strange to start thinking that it has a name, depression, and that maybe things could change. Right now I just don't believe.
Keeping track of thoughts is another great idea. I've been writing things down, really just for myself. I couldn't imagine handing them to my doc to read, though. He doesn't need to read my five pages of whining; he's seen it all before. At least that's the way I look at it, but maybe I'll take some with me next time. I also did something great last night. I was home alone and it was so wonderful and my mind started wandering and I found myself feeling good. I was sort of giving myself a little mental pep talk and I was starting to feel great. So I wrote down all those positive things, too. I had previously only written down sad stuff. This time i thought it might be nice to have something positive that I could pick up and read over and over when I was feeling down. And you know what, all day today I kept mentally referring back to what I'd written and I've felt so good all day. Quite an improvement over yesterday when I was wishing someone knew I was in therapy so I could call them while i broke down. I still have such ups and downs, though. Time. It just takes time I guess.
Much thanks to all of you... justyourlaugh, jai, daisy, karen. :) I no longer think I need to be committed. ;)
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