Posted by DaisyM on October 14, 2003, at 22:49:47
In reply to Re: Is there value in telling the details? » DaisyM, posted by deirdrehbrt on October 13, 2003, at 21:11:45
I'm sad for what you went through. I'm impressed by what you are now willing to go through.
You seem to have decided on a path even though you know it will be hard. I'm glad you trust your Therapist to handle it. I'm am really beginning to trust mine, but I did tell him last night that I was worried about how hard it must be for him to hear all of this. He made me promise (AGAIN!) not to take care of him. I think he said, "I'm watching the store so you don't have to." *smile*
He told me something else that I hadn't considerd before: We were talking (I was storming) about not being able to put words to all of this. He said, "well, since emotionally things were so out of control for you around these events but you stuffed them completely down, it makes sense that you wouldn't want to talk about it until you felt in control of at least the words." Basically, I'm probably going to need to mentally practice, have the conversation in my head a few hundred times, before I have it with him. Glad to know I'm not required to be spontaneous...just honest.
Thank for calling me courageous. I certainly don't feel that way these days. You should have seen me in session last night - wrapped tightly into a self-hug in the corner of the couch! Not exactly the picture of courage! :(
Then I came home and was a wreck. So much for mental practice! Let me know how it goes for you.
-D
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