Posted by deirdrehbrt on October 13, 2003, at 21:11:45
In reply to Re: Is there value in telling the details?, posted by DaisyM on October 12, 2003, at 23:02:16
Daisy,
I think that if I've learned anything it is that that book with all of the answers exists only in our minds. Should we wish to put it to paper, that will give us our one opportunity to see it and hold it in our hands.
There are a few books that I've read that do help me understand myself. Books by and about people with DID have helped me a great deal. Understanding that others have gone through trauma similar, at least in severity if not in substance, to what I experienced has helped.
It still is a lonely road. None of my family will accept the things that I experienced. None of them acknowledge me as who I see myself. They offer no help when I try to understand my abuse. They refuse to accept that it happened. Even when specific events are mentioned they are dismissed with an "Oh that wasn't that bad", "Your brother didn't mean anything by that", "They were just playing around and it got a little out of hand".
I learned with answers like this, that I can't talk about it to my family. They will never hear the details. They will never know my story.
Still, I think I need to learn the whole story and to share it with at least one person. That may be my therapist. I don't believe that most people could handle the entire story, and I think that it will be too much for a friend to be burdened with. My therapist works a great deal with trauma and I think that this should be her job.
I really wish that it could be easier for all of us. It's not though, and we have to find the best way for us.
I hope, and I'm sure that you will find the way that works best for you. You have courage, otherwise you wouldn't have survived until today. Use it, and make your own story.
Dee.
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