Posted by DaisyM on October 11, 2003, at 14:12:14
In reply to Re: Histories, posted by fallsfall on October 11, 2003, at 1:34:58
Your house could have been my house, except add one more child, my mom did love, but my dad didn't know how (scientists!)and then throw in a civilized "amicable" divorce. It took me a few more years than you to find out how hard (impossible!) it is to always be perfect. That of course was the outside picture. The family secrets...well, like I've said before, until recently I didn't think they mattered since they were so long ago and I was taught to "get over it" and "move on." Which is probably why ending up with depression is doubly hard for me...I failed by giving in to it and I'm failing daily by not being able to get over it. The saddest part when I look at everything I've done successfully, is that, with the exception of my children, I'm not sure any of it matters. Because, even though I feel like I'm not doing things as well as I use to, no one seems to have noticed the slippage. Is that because "good enough" really is "good enough?" Or am I really that good at pretending to be OK? ARRGG, I hate feeling like this!!
poster:DaisyM
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