Posted by michmich on October 7, 2003, at 20:27:58
In reply to Re: therapist abandonment » michmich, posted by fallsfall on October 7, 2003, at 20:10:39
Well, I have been seeing this female therapist for 2 years now at my university... we have been through ups and downs, fights, declarations of a sort of love, and i have finally been opening up to her. she used to let me email her, but her supervisor will no longer aloow the councelors to email. also,lately i have felt very vulnerable and needy as i have been opening up to her, and also finally told her that im infatuated with her. I have not told all the stuff, i have done, but it still feels weird. On friday we got into a huge fight because of misunderstandings and false perceptions. I had to wait till monday to talk to her. now shes decided, no email, talking on the phone bewtween sessions, no calling the center to ask to talk to her. she said she stil loves me and that this was in my best interest and that we would still see one another once a week. Monday and tuesday have felt like eons to me, and my next appt. is allll the way on thursday. Last night i stopped by at the center to talk to an intern, and today i walked in and the asked to have a meeting with the supervisor, which was so empty, and he is so dense...and he told me to hold on to my feelings and hang in there and to work with her on thursday to develop better coping skill. i have been waiting it out for seven years (and im only 20)... i know im being needy lately,but atleast im adhereing to the rules of no contact with MY therapist. Dont they understand that this sudden change is very hard for me? I guess not. I have been in agnony, the whole day. I even have a urge to email my therapist but i am afraid i will it in more trouble. its like the only way i could get help from people is if i kill my self, and if im dead, its tool late :( I hate this! Thanks for reading.
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