Posted by Penny on October 2, 2003, at 9:08:58
In reply to Re: Clear goals in therapy » Penny, posted by Dinah on October 1, 2003, at 19:19:30
> I've found I need to be clear sometimes with my therapist. When I'm feeling lousy, therapy fills itself and I just try to hang on for dear life. When I'm feeling better, I'm vaguely concerned about the time and expense of therapy. At those times I'd like to use the momentary lull in my emotions to move forward and do some real work. But he's not a mindreader, and I do have to tell him. Maybe even come up with things I'd like to work on. Then of course, when I'm feeling worse, I have to warn him that now is not the time to do whatever it is he might do if I were feeling better.
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> I'm sure talking to her will be productive.I think so - I just wonder if she's not pushing me b/c of what she might perceive as my fragile state of being right now. And perhaps I don't need to be pushed right now. My emotions are all over the place, and I'm just not feeling really together, and I can't find the right meds to help with the problem.
When I was with my former therapist, I would get to her office with enough time to sit for 10-15 minutes prior to our session and journal, so I could sort of collect my thoughts about what I wanted to talk about. But the timing of my sessions right now, combined with the fact that I have to take a bus home from work to get my car to get to therapy, limits the amount of free time I have before the session. If I could get there earlier and try to focus, perhaps that would help as well. Instead, I feel right now like I'm spending half of the session trying to figure out what to talk about.
With my former therapist, it was almost always about family (my parents in particular, then the other stuff around the time of my grandfather's suicide), and with my current therapist it has been more about my former roommate. And I guess some of what I have been talking about lately has been my pdoc and how very available he has been for me, especially lately, and how it makes me kind of uncomfortable. But it's almost as if I'm afraid to delve too far into those waters, and she's not really pushing, so, as I said, I'm pretty much getting nowhere.
Anyway - I see her at 6 p.m. today, so I'm going to try to have my thoughts collected before going. I've refrained from journaling much lately because it's usually not a good idea for me when my mood is low, but maybe I need to journal with limits.
I don't know. I'm sure she'll have some ideas.
P
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