Posted by Miller on January 3, 2003, at 21:59:23
In reply to Re: I know what I probably should do but I can't » Miller, posted by WorryGirl on January 3, 2003, at 20:56:09
Medication will not your miracle. It will certainly help you feel better so you can focus on what you need to work on.
Medication is also a frustration. I have been on medication for only 7 months and this is my third kind. I am hoping we got it right this time.
I guess I thought by seeing a shrink and taking meds, I would "kick this thing" in a matter of a month or two. No such luck. In fact, I got much worse before I got better.
The good news is that I THINK I am on an upswing. Not just my mood but with my therapy as well. A couple of appointments ago, I wanted to cancel. My shrink said he DIDN'T want me to cancel. He said I should just come in and rant and rave and yell and scream or sit and cry, but to come in. I didn't so any of those things. I simply told him I didn't think the therapy was working and I am too frustrated to continue. His opinion is that I am improving, however, the reason I was feeling so much worse was that I am in an in-between stage that is unfamiliar to me. The uncertainty is making me panic and stress. He and I agreed that I would continue for a little while longer, and if I still didn't see results, I could rethink my decision to terminate. As much as I hate to admit it, I think he was right. Compared to a month ago, I am so much stronger and less unhappy.
Did you explain to your therapist about the expense involved with going to sessions multiple times a week and the stress it causes you? If he doesn't give you a price breal, maybe he will arrange an agreeable payment plan. That would certainly relieve some anxiety about going back.
You have already shown that you are strong enough to face your issues. That is the hardest part. My suggestion is that you try some meds, if you think they will help, and to talk to your therapist about sessions that can fit into your time slots and expense range. Again, I will repeat the good Dr.'s advise that therapy can be a matter of life and death. You can work out an arrangement. Have faith. You may want to start your meds and then figure out a way for the therapy to work out.
You will be fine. Look at all the support you have here. We don't judge and we will try to protect you from yourself. Aren't you the lucky one? :)
-Miller
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