Posted by WorryGirl on January 3, 2003, at 20:43:16
In reply to Re: I know what I probably should do but I can't, posted by Noa on January 3, 2003, at 18:24:46
Thanks Noa,
I have the feeling that I need to start taking meds. I've been avoiding it because I'm afraid that I'll become dependent on them for the rest of my life. But feeling as badly as I have been these past few years (and it's only getting worse), I think I have no choice.
I guess I've still been hanging on to that one part of me that thinks I can handle this without drugs. Like I'm trying to prove that I'm strong enough on my own. But I'm not.
I guess I need to head back to the therapist, but the stress of arranging childcare for two small children, along with the expense, almost stresses me out enough to counteract what the therapist does!! My therapist felt that I needed to see him twice a week, but I only wanted to see him once every week or two. Why does it have to be all or nothing? I feel that I could get just as much benefit from the therapy 2-4 times a month instead of 8-10. If I felt like the therapy was improving me more, maybe I wouldn't be so hesitant. But I can't help feeling that as much as he cares about my well-being, he has to be concerned with his business, too, and make a buck just like everyone else. Is this terrible for me to feel this way?Thanks again
poster:WorryGirl
thread:2059
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