Posted by WorryGirl on January 3, 2003, at 20:52:03
In reply to Re: I know what I probably should do but I can't » WorryGirl, posted by mikhail99 on January 3, 2003, at 15:08:21
>Many of us know what we SHOULD do, it's finding the energy and stamina (and when you're in the middle of a bad episode, that's nearly impossible) to do those things.
Mik,
This is exactly how I feel.> Medication may help you find the strength to make those changes and you may only need it temporarily.
I know this, but my fear is becoming dependent on the medication for the rest of my life. Everyone I know who is on one can't get off it.
> How long have you been in therapy? How often do you go?
I stopped going in the fall. I was going once a week, then twice a week, but the expense was enormous and I didn't feel that I was improving like I should. I had been seeing him for about 7 months.
>My therapist had me take a personality test to better understand my type and I found I'm an introvert but I think I've been fighting it my whole life. My own experience is that my being introverted has made it difficult for me to express myself in way that I'm understood by others and I know I come across in ways I never intended. (Geez, I hope this make sense).Yes, I understand and as talkative as I am sometimes, I wonder if I'm not also an introvert at heart. Don't laugh, but sometimes I think I have some loose screws that are supposed to connect my thought processes to my appropriate disclosures, but somehow don't. If it wasn't for that, I doubt that I would be very social at all. When I think about it, I've never been social simply because I enjoy it. There is always a lot of pressure for me to feel accepted. But nothing ever comes out right and others eventually shy away. I'm one of those strange birds who seems OK when you first meet me, but after a while people figure out something's wrong. Aarrrgghhhh!
Your words of encouragement mean a lot.
Thanks again.
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