Posted by liliths on December 27, 2006, at 11:55:41
In reply to Re: UPDATE » liliths, posted by Quintal on December 26, 2006, at 16:08:17
hi Q
actually I still feel really stupid today and am wondering if it's a side effect of being so depressed.
I've been on 1/2 my hydrocodone dose for the past couple of weeks now. I tapered down without any problems, except, of course, becoming more depressed... which is REALLY bad timing, considering my circumstances
But I figured I should be prepared to go off it. It's even possible they won't issue me a license until I am - I haven't a clue how the board will react to the medication, much less the letter and documentation I provided in it's defense.
more than likely, they will go with PRN's recommendations, simply because it makes them 'feel' safe. I guess I wrote what I did mostly out of a sense of justice and the rage I feel at the way I've been treated. I hope they will at least hear some of what I've said about PRN not distinguishing between the people they are sent to 'evaluate' and think about making some changes
I've actually considered being off of it by the time of my interview - I haven't decided whether to continue to taper down or not.
that said, I just took 2 of them LOL My normal dosage called for 1 - 2x daily and I've just been taking 1 in the afternoon.
I haven't had any extra until today. I'm so depressed and so lost, I was curious to see what it would do.I think it will give me an indication of how the kratom affects me right now as well. I read the same thing about the dosages and actually, to some degree, that's how the hydro worked for me
I know that being this depressed and this dysfunctional won't change simply because I've taken anything. I am so 'off' right now that that, in itself, has me reeling. I don't live anymore. I just suffer. And despite my everyday decision to 'move forward' - I simply don't
I honestly don't know if I will make it through this and I can't say I really care. I went out the other evening and realized I don't even know how to be around people any more.
right now, I just want to die. What a waste it all appears to be. I don't even care about getting a damn license. It just feels like something I 'should' follow through on because of all I went through and gave up to get. I suppose if I have it, there's a possibility I could come back to being able to use it... even though that seems a distant bit of nonsense... and I also 'know' these are just feelings and therefore potentially transitory - and I have always HATED that phrase btw, simply because when immersed in them, they certainly don't feel so trivial
did I read correctly that you weren't currently on any prescribed meds? I'd like to go off of everything and use herbal supplements, except it's simply too damn expensive!! My insurance won't cover them. Nice racket the pharmeceutical companies have with insurance companies. imagine if people could be covered for their supplements!
after this experience, I want as little to do as possible with the 'powers that be'. I want off the grid
ahhh..... I am ranting... I'll stop
I apologize for blathering so
hope all is well with you
namaste,
lilith> Hi Liliths,
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> Mitragynine isn't a typical opiate and has some unique properties so it isn't surprising that you had a different response to Kratom. Kratom/mitragynine is supposed to have stimulating effects at low doses and sedative effects at high doses - maybe you'd be better off taking a smaller dose, or maybe the reverse is true and you'd benefit from a higher dose? The only way to find out is to test your responses at different doses.
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> It's also possible that the hydrocodone is affecting your response in some way.
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> Thanks for the recipe. It sounds interesting ;-)
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> No, I've never taken the liquid extracts but I'd be interested to hear your experiences.
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> I still haven't got round to contacting that guy - will do it tonight.
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> Take care.
> Q
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