Posted by liliths on December 21, 2006, at 10:28:36
In reply to Re: UPDATE » liliths, posted by Quintal on December 19, 2006, at 23:58:00
hi Q
I posted 2 updates this morning to the 'work' thread.
Maybe I should have made it a new thread. I guess I'll find out if no one responds LOLI had to do it as 2 separate posts because for some reason the letter kept overwriting everything that came before it - maybe it was too long? I decided to post yet another version of the letter and just took out the names as I'm running out of time and feel really alone. My pdoc turned out to be a real liability, rather than a help. I feel so betrayed. His letter is actually dangerous. I'm now terrified they might contact him!
in case you're interested...
1st: an update
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/work/20061208/msgs/715397.html2nd: the letter
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/work/20061208/msgs/715400.htmlI swear, if this weren't all happening to me, I wouldn't believe it!! I live with someone and they've been just amazed to see me have to fight uphill ALL the way over this.
just took some kratom... feeling really badly today - had a pretty good day yesterday but today I just don't care again. Sitting in a BIG pot of self-pity and hopelessness. Really, I just want to die when I feel like this
I was scared to take all 5 LOL so I only took 3... but I think I'll go take the other 2... you've made it sound fairly benign (I hope!)
funny what a chicken I've become... I think it's because I feel so threatened by life these days... I expect everything to have a bad outcome as that's exactly what's been happening to me
what a bad person I must have been in a previous life
be well
namaste,
lilith> Hi Liliths,
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> You sound very depressed and I really feel for you with what you're going through. It seems very unfair that you are being treated like this after working so hard to get back on your feet. You *will* get back in to work because you're obviously highly qualified and committed to your work and that *does* count for something.
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> >I also found out that if I do end up with a 'conditional' license, though the condition remains confidential, that fact that it IS conditional is noted. Of course, anyone will want to know why so I doubt I'd even be employable
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> Don't jump to conclusions with this. If any prospective employer questions why your license is conditional you can honestly say it was over a disagreement between some doctors on the review panel about the most suitable medication to treat your condition long term and has nothing to do with your ability as a massage therapist. They can verify this without having to know the precise details.
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> Lilliths, is that job with the sports team still going? I'm just wondering if you can go to them in complete honesty and explain the situation? Be forthright and get it out in the open. What do you have to lose? At least you'll know for certain where you stand then.
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> I'm sorry to hear about the pdoc's letter. If you think he has misrepresented your regression as a suicide attempt you are entitled to query that at least and ask for an amendment. Why is he refusing to change it?
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> I know things seem bleak right now but there are always ways of turning things around. I'll help where I can.
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> Have you tried the Kratom yet?
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> Take care.
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> Q
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