Posted by linkadge on April 24, 2020, at 18:38:18
In reply to Re: Starting Cocaine XR next week, posted by undopaminergic on April 24, 2020, at 3:33:10
>I agree, and I think I understand precisely what >you mean. I got lasting depersonalisation from >reboxetine (Edronax), and at the time, that really >helped for my depression. As it is now, I want my >emotions and my experience of the reality of >reality back.
Yeah, I can't seem to put my finger on my 'pattern' or what my problem is. My brain and thoughts just end up becoming so loud and painful that I just need to SHUT IT ALL DOWN. At this point, I resort to anything that will achieve this. However, I don't want to shut it down to 'depressed', so I look for things that can bring down the noise without causing depression. Being wonked out (I call it) is the only seeming state where my mind is not racing and I'm not depressed. I'm just detached and can let time pass giving my brain a chance to 'get a break'.
Honestly, I think its a 'hypercholinergic' state, as things like scopolamine do help.
Linkadge
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