Posted by JPA on January 3, 2015, at 17:32:37
I went off clomipramine, lyrical and gabitril in early December and took my last dose of remeron last night. I slept like garbage before, waking up about every hour and probably had many more micro arousals. The last week has been tough. I go to sleep and don't fall asleep right away. The anxiety then builds rapidly and I find myself wishing I was dead dead dead. At which point I take some lorazepham and sleep for three hours. That allows me to manage the next next day.
I also take some supplements that have helped heal me . Gotu Kola, Honokiol and Kava. I can be on those supplements long-term and be well. I just need to find a way to avoid the anxiety bomb if I don't fall asleep. I think for me It will involve getting out of bed and doing things like work or reading, reset the process and then try to reinitiate sleep.
My goal to keep lorazaphan for purely occasional use... Put your hand up if you think that's actually funny. Me too, but I'm finished with drugs. I've tried all of them...I exaggerate not. I'm happy to be on supplements and live reduced sleep.
btw I just went to see a sleep doctor. All she had to say to me is ho well functioning I was given the scale of my sleep problems, but had nothing to offer for supplements. She just said they don't work. Last time I waste my time with any specialist outside of my current doctor, who, by the way, would be happy to have me on heavy meds for the rest of my life just so I can maintain the veneer of a normal existence but feel like garbage all day, everyday.
I will feel the pain for the next several month, not to mention it will be our heavy time at work. I've been walking dead for the last 20 years of heavy medication use. Know I will continue being the walking dead, but will a least have a remote chance at truly being better with the help of natural supplements. At worst I'll be walking dead, but with a libido.
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