Posted by phidippus on July 19, 2014, at 11:07:09
In reply to Re: Best dopamine enhancing selective med, posted by Sugardog on July 18, 2014, at 23:47:33
> The anxiety is complex. I think I was born with some natural anxiety
Do you have a free floating anxiety? The kind that makes you nervous and worried about all sorts of things?
> My anxiety consists mostly of negative self thoughts.Are these thoughts intrusive and recurrent? Do you try to suppress the thoughts?
> When I was about six years old, my parents started having very violent fights (glass thrown, blood).
> Then when I was seven, my dad put a gun to his head and threatened suicide.These events may well have caused you some PTSD.
>All I wanted to do was save him because I loved him the most.
You may very well have saved him.
I thought it was my fault because I bugged him about building the dollhouse he promised to build for Christmas but hadn't done yet. He came up with the gun to his head after working on the dollhouse in the basement.>It happened on Father's Day, so of course I felt guilty.
Why would that make you feel guilty?
> Sorry to lay all this crap on you.I'm happy to lend an ear.
>So in terms of my anxiety, I'm not sure if it comes from genetics, past trauma, or an extreme perfectionism
It comes from genetics and the past, but I think your perfectionism stems from the anxiety.
>If I'm in situations where I face judgement or a possibility of not preforming to my or others' standards, I go into avoidance/obsessive mode.
I think you may have OCD with some PTSD thrown in for good measure.
> I also have a lot of anxiety about heights and driving on bridges or around high, curvy roads. I'm afraid of falling off.Have you ever tried exposure therapy for your phobias?
> I don't remember all the meds I've been on, but here's an incomplete list:
>clonazepam, ativan
How was your experience with those?
>depekote
You don't need Depakote.
>effexor, prozac, paxil, celexa, lexapro, cymbalta, vybrid,
Did any of these impact your anxiety?
>lithium, lamictal,
Did they think you were bipolar? Are you bipolar?
>abilify,
This combined with a high dose of SSRI may have helped.
>naltrexone,
To ween you off your heroin addiction?
>topamax,
What for?
>gababentin
Did this help with your anxiety?
>adderall, dexadrine
Do you have ADHD. Stuffs also good for OCD.
>amitripaline
You were on the wrong TCA. You need Clomipramine.
>wellbutrin
How did you respond to this?
>Would welcome any advice!
Let's figure out if you have OCD.
Eric
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