Posted by alexandra_k on December 5, 2013, at 23:31:34
In reply to Re: feel the worst trappedv feeling - absolutely ugly, posted by rjlockhart37 on December 3, 2013, at 21:59:16
yes... sometimes i think i do understand. not perfectly... not totally... you should of course feel free to say 'no - my situation is different and you do not understand at all!'. but... on some level... i think i kinda sorta semi understand a bit sometimes.
i understand feeling like crap. like i'm worthless. like i'm not likely to be much better at any point soon.
sometimes i have suggestions. things that helped me. because sometimes i get it into my head that i'm a little bit further along. a little bit older. a little bit wiser.. a little bit... better. but really... i expect i'm full of sh*t muchly. and... everyone has to, needs to, must... walk their own path. and there it is.
a lot of the time... i find myself thinking... that if you could seriously get yourself into a martial art or a sport or something... where maybe a bunch of guys would be a bit dubious about you to start with - you would be a bit dubious about yourself to start with... but then... you find some way to channel that into a big 'F*CK YOU!' and you really channel everything... your doubts and fears and frustrations and insecurities and worries and hopelessness-es and your... everything... your everything... into succeeding at... x. whatever x is. that that is the key for you. self-respect. other-respect. everything. and it doesn't matter what x is. it just matters that you pick an x and go for it. and stay working on it. until... kudos is achieved. your own and other peoples (same deal really).
but, ur, maybe that is just me.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:1055185
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