Posted by hyperfocus on April 22, 2011, at 23:56:12
In reply to hp + all here, questions re: SP » hyperfocus, posted by floatingbridge on April 20, 2011, at 12:21:18
> Hyperfocus,
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> The weirdest coincidence. My pdoc reaffirmed the SP affect. He has never done that, nor has that been a part of our work. Some social anxiety has, yes. Very strange because I have tried to diminish it so, and in fact, run away from it.
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I think that bullying, especially in highly-sensitive people (yes this actually is a personality type,) causes a psychic injury that can go very deep and undermine a person's core belief system. This can cause changes in a person's behaviour that may seem unrelated to the primary trauma. The primary tactic of all bullies is to make the victim feel worthless. The PTSD symptoms that can develop from bullying - social phobia, depression, anxiety, anhedonia, et. al, can reinforce this belief in a person. I really believe now that humans are tuned to give and recieve love and when something like social phobia impairs this ability, it is extremely traumatic to the person, more so that the person may realize. Personally there are many components of my pathological personality - avoidant, narcisstic, obsessive, self-destructive, schizoid, borderline - that stem directly from the quadruple whammy of highly-sensitive / bullying / social phobia / PTSD. I think shame is the most toxic emotion a human can have. One person described it very well: it's like everyday we take a white sheet and spread it over and do our best to cover up all the ash and ruin that our emotional life inside is. fb what do you think SP has changed about you? Are there things in your life that may have their root in SP?> Do you know any good reading or links re: SP?
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http://www.bullyonline.org/stress/ptsd.htm
is the place where I first made the bullying-PTSD connectionhttp://www.highlysensitivepeople.com/
http://www.hsperson.com/
about highly sensitive people> What is the current theory (ies)?
What do you mean - what is ies?
> I did *group* cbt for this. Individual cbt.
> Sigh. It only makes sense that when I'm off meds, original or some variant symptoms emerge. Like I could dye my hair red for years, but between treatments the roots would be brown. Honestly, grey.
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> I tried to hedge by saying, oh, it's not so bad. Doesn't quite work, though does it?
> I mean yes and no. I can talk to complete strangers. I can sign my name in front of others, like write a check. But it's still showing up. It still underwrites my decisions.Whenever I fantasize about doing stuff with a girlfriend - kissing, cuddling, making love etc., it's always with somebody I've never met or who at least doesn't know me very well. I feel that all the girls who know me for a while, regardless of their feelings for me, have become 'contaminated' by knowing who I am and thus can do nothing but loathe me. I can't fantasize about any girl who knows me presently because I classify them as threats - people who have seen all my flaws, who have pulled the sheet back and can only be repulsed. So, yes, social phobia does undermine literally everything in your life. Also remember mental illness has nothing to do with a person's true personality. You might actually like public speaking but be terrified of getting up in the middle of a class to go to the bathroom.
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