Posted by hyperfocus on April 26, 2011, at 11:33:47
In reply to Re: hp + all here, questions re: SP, posted by floatingbridge on April 25, 2011, at 22:08:04
*sigh* I wish I could have back that ignorance too fb. For myself, fb, SLS, everybody with SP. Sometimes, especially at night after another exhausting day, I feel as if I've gone through enough pain to last a person a lifetime. I feel old - not advanced in years - but just tired of living. My body and mind feel broken. All day I struggle to do the things most people don't even think about. Yes, all these gifts we've gained through illness and suffering could have been acquired at a cheaper price. Some people seem to breeze through life without ever thinking about stuff life this. I'm not decided if this is a good or bad thing.
But I guess that's where religion come in - it's part of the benefits plan if you sign up. There's a reason we're going through this pain. All that was taken from us will be given back someway, somehow. Try to do the right thing, no matter what. Wisdom and righteousness are the only shield you need. All the people who tormented you will get theirs one day.
There are no atheists on Risperdal. I personally can't deal with this life alone. I'm not strong or smart or brave or resilient enough. So if religion is a crutch or whatever then fine - sign me up, here's my money. But I mean today on the BBC I was watching this story about these Burmese men and women who are sold into slavery to work on the docks in Thailand. And hearing the horrific stories of torture and imprisonment and betrayal and murder, it sort of reminds you that there are no guarantees in this life. Every morning we get up and take one more breath and maybe hear a bit of music or see our kid's face, we should be grateful. Because there are so many with so much less.
And also, we should be grateful for the fact that we don't try deliberately to hurt other people. We don't take any pleasure in hurting others. We do our best to treat others well and it tears us up so much when we fall short. That, to me, is a wonderful thing to have. Because this whole Universe is about balances and equlibirum and it has been made clear to me by my family that in this world what goes around, comes around. This law is independent of any belief in divinity you might have.
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