Posted by yxibow on September 20, 2008, at 2:38:37
In reply to Wow.., posted by sam K on September 20, 2008, at 1:10:34
> My doctor out of nowhere decides that haloperidol would be a good medicine for me.. WRONG. I took it earlier today and I seriously thought I was going to die at first(panic), I went into this paranoid state for a long time, even now a bit. I swear to god I am not exaggerating, I felt like I had been on an acid trip again. I have problems from lsd use in the past.
There could be a differential diagosis here -- did you reveal your LSD use to your psychiatrist ? Because if you took it more than for one trip (even that can be a problem), there is a disorder called HPPD (Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder) from past use of hallucinogenic drugs. And in fact, contrary to what one would think, Risperdal, for example can actually aggravate and produce negative problems.> I have never responded even close to "okay" on an antipsychotic. I always feel SOO strange. Horribly strange.
Yes, there are EPS (side effects) which can be very awkward and uncomfortable, and antipsychotics are known for blunting -- making one feel a bit offset from the world or hammered, its hard to explain.
> I took abilify and my social phobia skyrocketed and I became more paranoid, but less in other ways.
> I feel like people are behind me and things like that at night.It could be paranoid depression.
> Sadly, my doctor thinks I have early onset Schizophrenia symtoms. He won't let go of the idea.
> I'm just so miserable lately!! I'm in a rough spot! I have no friends besides my family! So SAD! I think about killing myself everyday (although I don't think I'd do it)
I understand that feeling -- I have friends that have "moved on" in life, although they still know me, but are busy, and my parents are really my only friends and confidants besides a few online people and my caregivers (psychiatrist and psychologist).I also have feelings of suicide -- but you have to think, what would that do to your only friends, your parents -- it would be devastating.
That being said, it is natural to have feelings of suicide, it really is a feeling of wanting to escape one's problems.
But if one repeatedly and emphatically states this ad-nauseam to one's doctor -- one, its doing a disservice to yourself because it means only focusing on what you can't do and the eternal negative, and the other is that if you do have plans, your doctor really is required to do something about it, and antipsychotics and lithium and a few other things are the fastest thing to stop that.
Theres no solution!!!!!!!!!!!! I would be absolutly heartbroken if I became schizophrenic..
There are perfectly functional people out there in the world who are schizophrenic and are taking medication for it, or choose to ignore voices and other aspects of it and eventually can train themselves to be as functional as possible in life.I understand that you would be heartbroken -- I'm feeling caught with an "orphan disorder" that I never dreamed could possibly happen or last this long and have complications from medicine and the like....
...but I can't say anything else other than something that perhaps sounds hollow, that you take every day at a time during this period and not do something destructive to yourself. There could be another diagnosis like HPPD or something else.
And haloperidol is pretty strong for a starting agent these days -- I'm surprised at that, its so generic of an agent to be tried against what is thought to be schizophrenia. But then you have pointed out problems with at least one atypical. What about Zyprexa or Seroquel ?
I hope you do feel better in time and that there are options in life to be more functional regardless of what one may ail from. It is hard to accept a diagnosis at first. And you don't have to.You can get a second opinion from another psychiatrist, discuss what medications you've taken, do reveal your past drug use -- that should be used against you, that should be helpful for another possible diagnosis, and anything else you can think of.
I'm not saying a second psychiatrist necessarily because it takes time to build a relationship with someone you trust.-- best wishes
Jay
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