Posted by 4WD on September 30, 2006, at 21:29:01
In reply to Re: My Brain is on Speed, posted by MCush on September 30, 2006, at 8:03:06
Hi.
It sounds like you are in a lot of pain right now and really suffering. Like some of the other posters, I wonder whether you are actually bipolar. Not the classical kind, where you are up for a few months and then down for a few months but the mixed states kind.
The speedy wired feeling you talk about is one I know well. For me, it's not just wired it's also scared. To the point of being terrified for almost a year. I thought I had depression with bad anxiety - I'd had a problem with depression for a long time. But a few months ago I was finally diagnosed with bipolar.
Sometimes bipolar can be depression mixed with those intense feelings of hyper-ness. Do you get scared? You said it was like being on the verge of a panic attack. That's how it felt to me, too. I kept telling people it was like if 1 was normal and 10 was a panic attack, then I was at 8 or 9 all the time. The only thing that helped was the clonazepam.
But Geodon (and earlier, Zyprexa) really made a difference. I didn't want to accept the bipolar label - especially since the feelings just kind of started up out of nowhere when I was 48. Other bipolar medicines help, too but the side effects weren't tolerable.
When you make it to your appt., mention the possibility. But if doctors in Canada are like the ones here, you can't suggest it like you are diagnosing yourself. Say a doctor told you you might be bipolar a couple of years ago or something. Or just tell your symptoms stressing the wired feeling and your reaction to ssris. I have the same reaction by the way.
Try to hang on. It's good that you have a spiritual life. It's saved my life a few times.
Marsha
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