Posted by joslynn on June 1, 2006, at 15:08:36
In reply to Strong comment, posted by willyee on June 1, 2006, at 13:45:19
I have struggled with these kinds of feelings myself, though I do have a good response to meds and no cognitive impairment (so far....).
My Dad is anti-meds, and for most of his life, chose alcohol to treat what I suspect is underlying depression or perhaps biopolar. He lost his job and almost lost his marriage and damaged his relationship with his kids. That was his route. For whatever reason, I didn't choose that, though I did struggle with very similar depression to his. The meds, while I worry about them, do not make me scream for hours, pass out, etc. like the alcohol did for him.
On a similar note, in answer to your question what makes you different from a "street junkie"...my answer would be, we are different because antideps don't cause a high or buzz like pot or alcohol, and we don't need increasing amounts to get the same effect. (Or at least, that has been my experience...antidepressants do not make me feel happy or buzzed and I can stay at the same amount.)
So, whatever you decide, I feel that labeling yourself a street junkie is kind of hard on yourself. People who take cholesterol drugs or blood pressure drugs etc don't have these dilemmas that we have, wondering, how am I different from street junkies? (And like I said, I have wondered this myself.)
However...it could be that street junkies could be trying to self-medicate in their own ways, and so, we are probably more alike than we realize.
And I think you are right, 20 mins just isn't enough time. My pdoc seems me for 45 mins, and I know I am lucky to have someone like that.
So, whatever you do, don't be angry at yourself. You did what you thought was right at the time.
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