Posted by cubbybear on January 30, 2003, at 23:58:18
In reply to Re: In the depths of depression--please help, posted by proud mary on January 30, 2003, at 14:18:38
Mary,
To answer your questions, I'm not Asian. I was born in New York, then moved to California in '88, relocated and taught in Thailand in '97, returned to the U.S. during the Asian financial crisis in '97 (which triggered a severe depression then as well), then I recovered and returned to Thailand in '99 where I've been living ever since. I am single and live alone.When someone asks me why I am here, or why did I come to Thailand, I have to say that the answers could fill a book. Part of it is highly personal, part is religious/spiritual, part is political (I positively hate living in the U.S.) My ways of thinking and philosophies are very much Eastern or Buddhist oriented. So the last thing I want to do is to return permanently to the U.S. I'm praying that I can get through this horror by hanging on another month, making my annual trip to the U.S. in March, picking up the medication there that I know would help me (MAO Parnate) then returning to teach here again.
Of course, we never know what tomorrow will bring--be it either with the impending war in Iraq or the asinine Thai government (another story), but believe me, having to relocate back to the U.S. would open up a can of worms of perhaps bigger proportions.
Since I'm so badly depressed, it nearly seems like a no-win situation, but if I can just get through this next month, and pick up the Parnate in the U.S. and hang in there till it kicks in, I'm virtually certain that I'll get out of this mess. This is just a little synopsis of my situation.
poster:cubbybear
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