Posted by cubbybear on January 30, 2003, at 1:06:35
In reply to Re: In the depths of depression--please help » LyndaK, posted by proud mary on January 29, 2003, at 11:00:19
> This line bothers me, alot:
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> My pdoc told me NOT to go running off to the hospital every time I feel a psychological emergency--he's obviously trying to get me to become less dependent andto fight this thing out on my own. But today I felt such horrible pain that I wondered just where do you draw the line?
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> I honestly do not believe that any psychiatric doctor should be telling some one in your state of mind that. They are there to HELP, not put limitations on where or how you get that help. It almost sounds like he's annoyed with you! I've had enough therapy, been to enough psychiatrists and received enough care over the years to know that that is NOT right. You are hurting and practically non-functional; you are hanging in there by a thread, as you said, and it is affecting your perspective and the way you look at things and the way you handle things and the way you think. Does he really expect you to be able to "fight your way out of this?"
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> Please keep writing to us all and consider, if at all possible, changing pdocs. I don't know the whole of your situation, but if there is any way you can come back to the states and receive the support and proper medical care and medication you need, do it! (my opinion). This is your LIFE we are talking about here, not some character in a novel!Proud Mary,
The depression is bad enough, but now I'm starting to get conflicting advice.Such is the nature of this board. First understand, that in a place like Bangkok Thailand, psychiatrists are extremely hard to come by, much less decent/good ones. Secondly, I can partially understand his point, although you are also right.
Third, if I can just hang on somehow for about one month, I will come to the U.S. and get the medication I know will work (not available here). I need to somehow hang on till the end of February, since I am a teacher, and quitting before the end of the school year/contract would cause me to be penalized monetarily and lose a hefty bonus. I was even planning on returning here after the trip to the U.S. This is not just a holiday, but an extended stay (four years now), in case you didn't know. There's just so much involved. . .I'm convinced, however, that most if not all of this is hinging on my getting the right medication and making the best of what I have with my current doctor here.
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