Posted by LyndaK on January 29, 2003, at 13:27:24
In reply to Re: In the depths of depression--please help » LyndaK, posted by cubbybear on January 29, 2003, at 10:17:45
Cubbybear,
I have to agree that I reacted much the same way as Mary at your pdoc's statement about not running to the hospital, but I realize you are dealing with a different culture there. That makes it so much harder.
<<I was feeling a trifle better yesterday, and then today I crashed down deeper than I ever did in any and all previous depressions. Have you ever had that happen? --These little "false starts" where somehow, for some reason, you feel a little better for a day or two, then you go back down again, maybe worse than before? <<
I certainly recall waxing and waning of symptoms even when on medication, but my worst day ON the medication (no matter which one I was on) was always better than my worst day OFF of medication. That's why I KNOW, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that medication makes a difference for me. But no other medication has made the kind of difference that Remeron has made for me, and I think that's pretty much what you've been saying about Parnate for you. I'm not saying that you should abandon the Aurorix trial, but I think the timeframe you've given to judge effectiveness is certainly reasonable -- especially since you are not new to the whole depression/medication thing. You're "seasoned" -- you have past experiences upon which to compare and judge. And you've been on a medication that was truely effective for you and made a SIGNIFICANT impact on your mood and quality of life.
I'm wondering if it would be a good idea for you to make a trip back to the U.S. even if the Aurorix suddently kicked in and started working. You could use the time that school's not in session to come out here and work with a therapist who has a better understanding of your condition and doesn't confuse depression with personal weakness AND who might be able to help you sort out some of the social issues that have caused so much grief. And maybe a visit with your Mom would be a good thing??
You asked about me "keeping in touch regularly" -- ABSOLUTELY I'm willing to do that, and the cool thing about this board is that there's a whole host of other people who are willing to do the same thing because WE'VE ALL BEEN THERE and we know how horrible it is and how important it is to get through it.
Keep Talking (Posting ;-)
Lynda
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