Posted by Adam on November 10, 2001, at 17:11:03
In reply to I want to die, posted by Delphine on November 9, 2001, at 18:08:08
I wouldn't be worried about letting your doctor down. Tell him everything you are feeling. He's not there to judge you, he's there to provide medical help and support.
I've felt this way, pretty much. It never hurt to discuss it, and through those discussions I learned about the possible benefits of hospitalization. I eventually went to the hospital, and it was a very good move.
I'm in better shape these days. I can't always say that my doctors were 100% helpful in getting me to where I am now, but I do know that I was worse off when no one knew how I felt. Communicating your feelings to someone is a sound policy. Good things come of it, the majority of the time.
> I want to die. I don't have any plan or anything. I just feel that way. I don't want to tell my doc because I'm afraid he'll be disappointed after all the effort he has put in me. And I have betrayed him. I said I wouldn't drink and I have. I said I would respect my prescription and I haven't. I was hoping "this" (this evil depression) would go away a month ago so I didn't say anything. It hasn't. What now? I think I should call the hospital, maybe. But then I'll be a huge fucking disappointment and they'll put me on APs or something. I don't want that. I would rather die.
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