Posted by paxvox on November 9, 2001, at 20:41:38
In reply to I want to die, posted by Delphine on November 9, 2001, at 18:08:08
Delphine,
I will try not to patronize you, but you may take me as being "blunt". Apologies beforehand.
OK,if you were going to kill yourself, or REALLY wanted to do so, you 1)wouldn't have posted and 2)would probably already be dead. So, I take your posting as a search for support to help you unnderstand WHY you feel as you do. I have been in your shoes, and yes, it's the dissapointment of others, rather than a concern for my own welfare that kept me ticking.
Looking back on it, that is SO STUPID!!! You are talking about a very precious thing... a life.... YOURS!!! God knows how things have changed since those days when the only way out looked like a one-way trip. I look back sometimes and ask myself, "how could I have been so stupid?"
The only reason I could POSSIBLY justify suicide would be at the latter stages of a terminal illness, when one is in intractable pain.
I don't know your circumstances, but I suggest your pain, though VERY REAL, is also VERY TREATABLE.
So, yes, I concur with the others. If you are obsessing on suicide,go to the ER now, don't worry about who you piss off or piss on! YOU, no matter how deeply you think you may have fallen, are far too valuable to throw away, far too much of a miracle to waste. Get some help, feel better, tell us how it went, we can laugh and cry together here.
PAX
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