Posted by JasonL on March 6, 2001, at 11:37:46
Friends,
I am at my end. To affraid to live, to affraid to die. I cannot snap out of this lonliness and depression. The days are to agonizing to go on. I have tried all kinds of meds, nothing seems to help my eternal fog, lonliness, despair. The thought of another day terrifies me. I have just begun with another therapist as if its gonna help. I just can't change my attitude and be possitive. I just want to go to sleep forever. My suicidal thinking is extreme. Every moment I am awake I think of death, a way out. Its just inbearable. I am living in hell with the world around me going on, enjoying, playing, making sense. There is this part of me that just wants to give up. Its a ruthless addictive aspect to myself that keeps me in bed, keeps me from doing anything. I am so afraid to die, so afraid to live.
JasonL
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