Posted by kathy on May 29, 2000, at 0:00:57
In reply to Re: SUICIDE, posted by Jeri on May 28, 2000, at 23:18:31
Hi jeri and thankyou for caring and replying. The moment I read your reply I started crying because it is the first time that in my loneliness someone whom I absolutely don't know has cared to communicate a word to me. you know my story is long but Iam going to my therapy sessions once a week but this weekened I have just broken down. Iam young and pretty they tell me and I have so much to look forward to, but why is it that my marriage has made me lose my self worth or maybe I always was this weak or else I wouldn't let a MAN break me in to pieces. I don't know how to hang in there. I had totally trusted the fact that my husband is never going to leave knowing that I have no one here. I really wish I had a friend who could relate. I have never been in a chat room before and this feels very weird. I feel as though someone shall recognize me in this chat room but then again who cares. I listen to insperational tapes (tony Robins), I tried meditation, running, working , writting my feelings, exercising,going out,trying to focus on good things but now none of that works anymore when I think of all my belongings and my whole life is being split and nothing hurts more than when a man says he doesn't love y0u anymore. I feel betrayed, abandened, and not loved. My parents don't even care so much because everyone says if I were a good wife then why is he leaving and so on. I have tried to write to stop the suicide attemps but I just can't fight it anymore. you know Iam just tired of trying to be strong. I just want to relax and be weak if I want to without anyone jugding me. You say to take it day by day but a day for me right now is full of lonely thoughts especially that this is a long weekened and it has been hard. Iam really embaressed to even right these feelings. Thank you for praying for me jeri. I need it with all my soul....
poster:kathy
thread:35034
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