Posted by Janice on October 21, 1999, at 0:11:30
In reply to Re: I gots this theory, see?, posted by Noa on October 20, 1999, at 6:17:27
I don't think you are successfully avoiding your feelings Noa. I read your posting about ADD and wanted to respond to it but haven't had the time. I think you know my story, treated for depression for 5 years unsuccessfully until I discovered I also have ADHD. I now think about 65% of what I considered to be my manic depression is actually my ADD. Okay the differnce for me between ADD and depression... this is a spontaneous and very non-scientific list.Qualities I attribute to my ADD
*self-torturous thoughts (similar to anxiety)
*I'm stuffed full, never feel empty
*unable to relax, never feel like I've gotten anything done.
*oblivious to gossip
*don't/can't do small talk
*never at peace
*EXCITABLE (emotionally)
*serious troubles feeding myself (food bores me to tears). My ADD sister loves food and binge eats (she can't control her impulses).
*I used to (I have 'cured' this symptom) have extreme difficulties being organized and clean. I was unable (although I have a high IQ and am a gifted student) to figure out how a room got messy and how a room got clean.
*I'm intense
*times when you can't control yourself. i.e., I'm completely intolerant of pretences. When someone pretencious is around, my brain and mouth collaborate and take over my being. I have no control and find myself very artfully criticizing the crap of the person. This fills me with shame, but usually, my friends will tell me that the person deserved it.funny enough, talking alot and not listening to other people is a common symptom of this disorder. I talk relatively little and listen intensely.
Symptoms I attribute to Depression
*flu like symptoms (fever, aches and pains)
*not being able to get out of bed
*comes with anxiety and small OCD type thoughts (i.e., I cannot be late for anything, not even 2 seconds)This is not a great list Noa. The two can be so similar. I definately have both, and am, right now, trying to figure out for myself what is the difference.
I'm sorry to hear about your weight gain and how it seems to feed off of and feed your bad feelings. I have been anorexic so I definately know about feeling fat, and the fear of fat. You talked about your mother criticizing your appearance. I am a hyper-sensitive person so I'm not certain as to how accurate my perceptions are, but I believe my family spends too much time talking about my appearance, even now. I wonder why they do this? I certainly don't talk about other people's appearances. How's your coctail going? great response Noa, I enjoyed it. Janice.
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