Posted by Bob (vote early, vote often) on September 8, 1999, at 9:04:31
In reply to Re: Depression and Relationships, posted by Roo on September 8, 1999, at 7:34:27
Wow.
Not much more I can say about this thread. It just kinda pops my eyes out with each new message.
As for names ... the little guy on my left shoulder (left not as in 'sinister', but as in the reed that bends but does not break--the path of peace) says "Keep it up ... you don't know who the real you is anyway, and its kinda fun to think up new stuff and maybe people get a chuckle out of it." The little guy on my right shoulder says "Taurus feces!!! It's getting moldy ... just can the parenthetical comments, puh-leeze!" So, I'll out it to a vote. Send me email, if you want to vote. I'll post the results somewhere after this weekend.
My childhood? Prior to 8, life was pretty normal. From what I'm told (I remember next to nothing of that time), I was rather shy. Then on August 17, 1970, one of my brothers and my grandfather drowned in a boating accident on Lake Huron, with my dad and another brother clinging to to keel of their capsized boat for 18 hours before they were rescued. My father, his father, and the brother who died were all named Bernie -- so my dad lost his past and his future in one blow. To make matters worse, my mom blamed him for it all and still, 29 years later, doesn't forgive him. Those of us left in the aftermath were left to fend for ourselves.
My mom cannonized my dead brother, and that was the role model I had to live up to. I took twelve years or so, but I finally realized that the only way to reach that level of perfection was to be dead myself. The cosmic joke of it all was that I failed even at that! It took a few years, but I think that failed suicide attempt is what inspired me to adopt my "realist perfectionist" stance -- (1) perfection is the only acceptable end, (2) I am inherent incapable of achieving perfection, therefore (3) I'm not going to get my undies bunched about it anymore.
(Damn ... gotta go do some of that "work" stuff ....)
Cheers,
Bob
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