Posted by DL on November 17, 1998, at 21:56:13
In reply to Re: Remeron questions, posted by Toby on November 17, 1998, at 13:07:44
>> your history of depression and anxiety is a long one, yet at the same time has never been really relieved by any medications until recently.I sense that a good part of my life I have been in the anxious/depressed mode but since that was all I knew Ididn't realize it. Then when hormones (pregnancy/delivery/menopause) or physical and mental stress were contributing factors, I gradually fell into that place where I felt trapped, alone, scared and unable to move in any direction--hanging on by my fingernails over a cliff. I think that if someone like you had spent a few hours getting to know me and some time experimenting and watching closely--I might have found relief sooner. 19 yrs ago when I was teetering on the edge after giving birth, no one seemed to be available. An OB/GYN prescribed Dalmane to help me sleep and then refused to renew it after 3 months. It was the same as with klonopin--I slept enough to stay alive and made my self keep going, but life was empty and full of terror for at least a year. I never saw a psychiatrist or therapist until 2 1/2 yrs ago. At that point I was just as bad again. The psch told me I was a Pandora's Box waiting to be opened! After those AD trials I was led to believe I "didn't want to get better" or the drastic effects were just in my mind etc. I started to believe it. Both times the MD's resorted to sleeping meds and then stopped even considering other things. So, if someone tried the right med I might have responded?
>>EMDR.
CAn you tell I am a little nervous about this? I will finish moving first and get the legal stuff over with--then call some of the people on the list. Hopefully new insurance will cover it. Since I may have to pay the full price, I want to make sure the person is very experienced and that I won't be afraid with them. That list has 9 people on it--I wish there was someone local who could recommend one of them.What are your ideas on M or F for EMDR? I see a female therapist but was comfortable with a male therapist who did some couples therapy with us until my husband refused to go back. I was very comfortable with that male therapist.
I guess I am worried that I won' t feel safe enough or that my issues won't seem "big enough" to be bothered with. I myself don't feel them as much as I did a few months ago--they fade some when things are brighter for me.
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Will you be hanging around this site in the next few months so I know I will have someone to check in with during EMDR?Hey, thanks for being there......
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