Posted by DL on November 14, 1998, at 1:52:06
In reply to Re: Confusion/life moving too fast, posted by Toby on November 9, 1998, at 14:41:16
> Packing and moving are very energy draining even if you don't feel you are overdoing it.
It's 2:30 in the morning. I'm up packing. Partly moved. I'm starting to feel what it might be like to disconnect from this long trapped life. When I am at the new place and thinking about the future.
Sleep is still good. I've stopped wondering each day if I might go back to the terrible old sleep pattern. And I hardly ever dissolve into those tears that float me down the hill. Anxiety is improving and frequently my concentration seems to be better.
But, the weight/appetite is a problem I don't want. It seemed to come over me just after I had finally had a week or two of good sleep. I know intellectually I should be able to control it, and I can't understand since I have always had an iron will (it's what kept me alive). Within minutes of thinking about losing the weight I have put on I suddenly notice I am eating something. I never felt hungry so much before. Perhaps when I am all moved and alone I can deal better with it.
But, if I still have trouble gaining should I try to stop the Remeron and see if I am OK without it?
>Focus on the future (what you want to be and do, not necessarily how to get there... that may be too much for now).
I want to go on a vacation somewhere beautiful and peaceful--even if it's only for a few days. It always seemed that everyone had them and I never did. When I build up some vacation time I want to do this. I also want to get more training in infant movement facilitation and feeding issues. I'm not even going to try to figure out how.
Should be all moved out by the 21st.......
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