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Posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 17:30:40
It's going on a month since I've seen him (he's injured)... I got to have a phone session on Wednesday, and was supposed to have another one today, but he has a fever and couldn't. I miss him. It feels like I have been completely abandoned, even though I haven't been. I have other people I can talk to here (at my school), but it's not the same as talking to him. And I'm so scared that I'll do something wrong, so he'll decide he never wants to come back. It's the little girl part of me that's so scared. And she's pretty much inconsolable. I am very numb at the moment, but it comes and goes in waves. I keep having dreams about him abandoning me, and it's so hard. I just want to curl up in a ball and have him come and just hold me and tell me it's going to be alright, that he won't go away, that he didn't mean to be gone so long, that he missed me, that it's going to be ok. And that I can cry and fall apart and he'll be there to hold me together.
I miss him.
sunnydays
Posted by Happyflower on March 30, 2007, at 17:43:46
In reply to mssing my T, posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 17:30:40
(((((sunnydays))))) I understand why you feel so "abandoned", even if it wan't intentional, it must still feel like that. Your T's seems to really care about you, he seems so sweet to say those things to you. Does he tell you why he is in the hospital? A month is a long time. I am glad he will talk to you on the phone. But he is lucky to have you as a client. ;-)
Posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 18:39:45
In reply to Re: mssing my T, posted by Happyflower on March 30, 2007, at 17:43:46
I think you misunderstood. He didn't say those things to me, and he certainly doesn't hold me, that's just what I wish. Although he used to tell me he wasn't going anywhere. And I guess he didn't really go anywhere, he just got hurt. He's not in the hospital, he hurt his back and so he's home recovering for a month now. And today he got a fever so he can't call me. I am very sad.
sunnydays
Posted by gazo on March 30, 2007, at 18:48:19
In reply to Re: mssing my T » Happyflower, posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 18:39:45
oh SD, it *will* be ok. You have to try and get through this until he is well. Is it possible to get another T to cover for him? i know you said something about other people at school? i know.. it's him you miss. Maybe though someone else could help you deal with that until he comes back.
You're stronger than you think. You can do this honey.
Posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 19:31:27
In reply to Re: mssing my T » sunnydays, posted by gazo on March 30, 2007, at 18:48:19
I know I can do this, and obviously I don't have a choice except to get through it. But I don't want to. I want everything to be all better. I don't really want another T, although I have been reaching out for support. I want my T to come back. He understands me and there's so much he knows about me and how I react to things that I'd have to try to explain to someone else. Thanks for thinking of me,
sunnydays
Posted by frida on March 31, 2007, at 11:11:15
In reply to Re: mssing my T » gazo, posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 19:31:27
Dear Sunnydays,
I understand...the times my T has been away, it was her I missed and her the one who could make that pain go away. I understand it's so painful. WHen my T is gone for a month or more...I try to stay connected somehow. I often ask her if she can tell me a book she loved, or that she's reading or that she'd like me to read...IT somehow gives me a safe place...or movies she has loved and wants me to watch...Maybe when you talk to your T you can ask her for something like this to help you feel he's with you? It seems silly but for me, it helps me feel she's there, I don't lose the connection and she'll be back.
I try to do other things to feel connected...like writing to her (though it is sometimes painful to do), sending her a card, making her a drawing or gift. That helps me get through the day and I know I'm making something for her. It somehow helps a little.
Maybe some of that could be of help to you?
Waiting is really hard. I hope he feels better soon so he can be there for you..
I often feel the same as you...the need to just be held and told it'll be ok, you are safe, it will be just fine, i'm with you.
I hope you can feel connected to your T soon and he can help you feel less pain...He's not abandoning you, he'll be back, even if it feels like you are being abandoned.sending you support to get through these days
Frida
Posted by frida on March 31, 2007, at 11:13:30
In reply to Re: mssing my T » sunnydays, posted by frida on March 31, 2007, at 11:11:15
meant to say my T is usually gone for a month or so at least once a year... fortunately now she's here.
But I understand how hard it is to wait.
to try to put things on hold...hoping you can feel connected to him somehow,
Frida
> Dear Sunnydays,
> I understand...the times my T has been away, it was her I missed and her the one who could make that pain go away. I understand it's so painful. WHen my T is gone for a month or more...I try to stay connected somehow. I often ask her if she can tell me a book she loved, or that she's reading or that she'd like me to read...IT somehow gives me a safe place...or movies she has loved and wants me to watch...Maybe when you talk to your T you can ask her for something like this to help you feel he's with you? It seems silly but for me, it helps me feel she's there, I don't lose the connection and she'll be back.
> I try to do other things to feel connected...like writing to her (though it is sometimes painful to do), sending her a card, making her a drawing or gift. That helps me get through the day and I know I'm making something for her. It somehow helps a little.
> Maybe some of that could be of help to you?
> Waiting is really hard. I hope he feels better soon so he can be there for you..
> I often feel the same as you...the need to just be held and told it'll be ok, you are safe, it will be just fine, i'm with you.
> I hope you can feel connected to your T soon and he can help you feel less pain...He's not abandoning you, he'll be back, even if it feels like you are being abandoned.
>
> sending you support to get through these days
>
> Frida
>
>
Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 31, 2007, at 12:43:45
In reply to mssing my T, posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 17:30:40
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