Posted by sunnydays on March 30, 2007, at 17:30:40
It's going on a month since I've seen him (he's injured)... I got to have a phone session on Wednesday, and was supposed to have another one today, but he has a fever and couldn't. I miss him. It feels like I have been completely abandoned, even though I haven't been. I have other people I can talk to here (at my school), but it's not the same as talking to him. And I'm so scared that I'll do something wrong, so he'll decide he never wants to come back. It's the little girl part of me that's so scared. And she's pretty much inconsolable. I am very numb at the moment, but it comes and goes in waves. I keep having dreams about him abandoning me, and it's so hard. I just want to curl up in a ball and have him come and just hold me and tell me it's going to be alright, that he won't go away, that he didn't mean to be gone so long, that he missed me, that it's going to be ok. And that I can cry and fall apart and he'll be there to hold me together.
I miss him.
sunnydays
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