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Posted by SandyWeb on June 2, 2004, at 23:42:20
In reply to Re: Jumping in, posted by gardenergirl on June 2, 2004, at 22:12:01
Wishing you pleasant dreams, gg!
((gg))
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on June 2, 2004, at 23:51:27
In reply to Hello,SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on March 23, 2004, at 23:19:56
Good Ev-e-ning!
I'm pooping out, so I guess I won't be up all night afterall. Shucks! I can hear the old age creeping up on me already. *smile*
I just happened to look at the page with ALL the posts from this thread. Wow-sers!!!! What a roller coaster, huh?? My goodness! I'm not about to go in and read those messages again. Good riddance, I say! Lol.
Sorry I took all of you on such a ride. I didn't realize it had been that bumpy for all of you. I was a basket case, huh?!?
Thanks for standing by me through all this. You guys deserve a medal! I really, really appreciate it. By the looks of things, you helped me to hang on sometimes. I don't remember PRECISELY.....but I think I was depressed?? Lol!!
Have a great day!
Sandy
Posted by jlynne on June 3, 2004, at 1:56:23
In reply to Re: Sandy » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on June 2, 2004, at 20:44:55
> Jlynne,
>
> Banish the thought of my children having kids of their own! Yikes! Then again, I suppose I might have much more FUN being grammie rather than mum. You're a lucky duck, jlynne!
>
> Sandy
>Hey, Sandy . . . it's the only revenge we are allowed, for them to have teenagers of their own. LOL
Nice to see you smiling again, sweetie. Don't question it:~)
((((HUGS)))) ((((smiles))))
...jlynne
P.S. Don't think I missed that crack about "grandmas". *smile*
Posted by partlycloudy on June 3, 2004, at 12:42:04
In reply to Good Gracious!!, posted by SandyWeb on June 2, 2004, at 23:51:27
I think you deserve a brand new thread so you can put last week behind you. Go for it, girl!
Posted by LynneDa on June 3, 2004, at 13:59:04
In reply to LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on June 2, 2004, at 13:22:14
3 philosophy classes . . . wow, no wonder you are such a deep thinker! I'm glad to know I could make it as a philosophy teacher if I needed a fall-back career! I was always a glass half full, Pollyanna type - could find the good in any situation. At 40, my rose-colored glasses have become a little less rosy. I sure wouldn't mind being that glass half full girl again!
I am SO happy to hear a lighter tone in your notes. I hope it lasts for you sweetie! Even if it occasionally dimishes, you know you are capable of feeling good and that the down times are NOT your permanent state, but just a temporary aberration! :-)
~ Lynne
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Hey girlie,
>
> I've taken 3 philosophy courses in my long career as "Professional Student". Honey, your way of thinking has got those professors beat! Ha!
>
> Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on June 3, 2004, at 23:45:06
In reply to Re: LynneDa » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on June 3, 2004, at 13:59:04
We just received a 2-week eviction notice. I can't keep this up anymore. I don't have anything more left to lose.
Can someone please email me at sandrawebster@sprint.ca
Sandy
Posted by gardenergirl on June 4, 2004, at 1:36:09
In reply to Someone Email Me Please, posted by SandyWeb on June 3, 2004, at 23:45:06
Posted by trucker on June 4, 2004, at 15:19:09
In reply to Sandy, posted by jlynne on June 2, 2004, at 19:35:34
poetic justice for your son i think... it all comes back to haunt ya
trucker
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> Sorry, kid . . . the profundity I promised hasn't ignited the ol' synapses yet; hard to be brilliant on three hours of sleep.
>
> Good luck with your son - I was the single mother of a 15-yr old son, too (argh!). I really think Adam and Eve must have screwed up more than what we are aware of, because NO ONE deserves the kind of punishment we get as parents of adolescents!! (yes, I like to shift blame whenever possible *smile*)
>
> ((((Sandy)))) ((((mothers))))
>
> ...jlynne
>
> P.S. My son is now 34 yrs old and has a 10yr old son of his own (heh heh).
Posted by SandyWeb on June 5, 2004, at 23:00:41
In reply to Someone Email Me Please, posted by SandyWeb on June 3, 2004, at 23:45:06
Thanks for the 2 messages I received. I was so much in need to talk with someone that night....and I can see, from days later, just how much I'm worth. I understand how fed up you guys are with me. I get the message. I've always gotten the message.
I don't know how to deal with an eviction notice. I've never recived one before in my 39-years.
Can you guys do a favor for me? The oes who know me. Pleae contact Cst. Andrew MacVivor and Cst. Rov MacMullin. You know the oilice department. I don't thnnk they are back on duty until Monday the 7th. It'll be all over by then...but....coud someone please get in touch with them and ask that maybe they could heep an eye on my kids. I don't now how they will react, and I would kihe the ilice tobe a good impact on the,.
I feel like throwing up. I actually had a motel room rented for tonight, but decided in the last minute hat the money coud be spent on better things. Such as the one onth of rent that I missed because of Welfare being cut off, and then being 2 months ate in other bills. There;s my excuse. Everyone needs an excuse, right?
I get the point. I'm down...and ten I eventaully get "yp"....but life just punches me down again. I get it, okay? Even when others wouldn't email me back....I realizze how much people likeme.
I was going o send an emial to me cop "angels". Bit, I *think* that they are off duty until OMonday moring. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I've been drinking and popping pils. I'm not sure why it never works. I can't see he keybortd any more. And if the pills don't work, then I'v got a day with the cast if the city. I can't leep my eyes open!! It is time. How did I ever veer away from the original plan? Oh, that's right. Because the kind=hearted Rob interveened with the police and hospital. He gave me two extra months to have my wothlessness thrown in my aface.
And no one emailed me when I REALLY needed yo vonnect with someone. My bosy was actually shaking. YTjanks for the comfort. Yeah, right. Only 3 peopje emailed....showing just how exhausted people are with me. I can't even readthe screen now.
I have los everything. I hope someone will get in touch with my 2 angels when they are back on duty. They will be helped through this. They are cognizant to the fact that ...and now I've lost my trin of thought.
My daughter is spending the night at a friends. I was going to hold that group. I'm not sure what is going on. Sorry for all the drama I've brought into my life to lay at your geet.
What what episeensI know I wont b abe to wakj once the pills wear off. And if that hapopens, I've got a rzor blade nearby. Why did Dr. Rovert stop visiting me? Because
O hav4 to prtform a citicy for the ER? I was going to arrange for a night's pellow for the night.
I Rob, I see you at the smokes counter. I didn't know that you smoke. Shame, shame. How the kids are here. G howwell. I feel bad for sending all those employees.
Posted by octopusprime on June 5, 2004, at 23:22:08
In reply to Re: Someone Email Me Please, posted by SandyWeb on June 5, 2004, at 23:00:41
sandy we care
please come to open and talk
Posted by gardenergirl on June 5, 2004, at 23:22:47
In reply to Re: Someone Email Me Please, posted by SandyWeb on June 5, 2004, at 23:00:41
Sandy,
please come to open and talk with us. You can vent or you can be silly. Whatever it takes.We're here.
gg
Posted by SandyWeb on June 6, 2004, at 1:58:16
In reply to Sandy dear, come to Open. We're here! » SandyWeb, posted by gardenergirl on June 5, 2004, at 23:22:47
I still can't see right. But I was still able to trick you-know=who. They spent a whole 2minutes wtih me. They weren't in the least bit interested. And they nade e very, very noervous.
Appreciate it......How come they said that I wanted to do it ecause my kids weren't jome? If I said that I do't remember. I should have been in a notel, vut decided not to sepend so much moneyu on a brf!
They daw a woman dressed normally, te houise is neat and tidy, and I fuess I spoke cojeretly. Scared me. I could not go aypkace with those people. I could hear muself talking out through my ears. I dar downh, dimmed the lights, and only focused on on person. I thought my eyed ertr explofing out of my head. I am doooooo glad that they only stayed for 2 minutes. I had to ask her to repeat herself a couple of times. Thy were in a rush to leave. I could harly speak because my mouth was so fry. I am glad, glad, flad they are fone.
Oh gosh, it is almost 4am. Another failure. I knew I didn't want to do it in my apartment. I feel dirty now. Thans but so thans.
Posted by SandyWeb on June 6, 2004, at 2:21:26
In reply to Re: Sandy dear, come to Open. We're here!, posted by SandyWeb on June 6, 2004, at 1:58:16
I really have to leave this board now. (Big round of happy cheering for that!). The whole thing is id that I didn't want to be alone wjem O ge;; a;leep. I'm not good ith foing things by muself.
I do not like doimg xomething, and then it gets interfered with. I can;t keep feeling this way. It makes me feel worse and wose and worse. 2 more weeks and wehave to be packed upo and gone. I haven;t even told the kids yet. They won't even be able to finsih the school year here. I hate lying to people. I can't deal with the eviction. Gosh darn it, I *know* nothing us going to happen tnugt. The cops made me give a veral guarantee that I would't do anuthing tinught a they left. I can;t stand this. Another day. Yu gave me anotehr day. I am so messed up. I should just do it now. She was so smug in thinking that I'd lee[ thje premose/ I have nothing to lose. U guess I can wait another day. So I fuess gat neabs I can gpo to bed now. I knoe I'll sleeo a long long time. O really don't want to wake up to the world I live in.
No more messages. Thry mkae me do thingd I fon't want to do.
Off to bed, To eakr up to a world again that I fon't belong in.
Posted by octopusprime on June 6, 2004, at 12:43:06
In reply to Re: Sandy dear, come to Open. We're here!, posted by SandyWeb on June 6, 2004, at 2:21:26
Sandy,
are you feeling better this morning?
listen we called the cops because we are concerned about you and we care.
you have a lot on your plate right now and you need help.
your children need a home, you need to find one for them. did you call any of the places i suggested to you?
if you can't do this sandy, please go to the hospital. they will help keep you and your children safe.
sandy i have said this to you before ... i think what you want is for the pain to stop, not for your life to stop. medications CAN help you get it together enough to find a job and a place to live. but first you have to decide to put YOU and your kids first. and accept the help as offered.
i implore you sandy to consider going to the hospital.
i'm sorry you're disappointed in the lack of response here but it's extremely difficult for all of us to help you when you refuse any and all attempts at help from professionals. please consider professional help.
will email and post this message in case you really aren't checking the boards.
Posted by SandyWeb on June 6, 2004, at 13:20:58
In reply to oh dear » SandyWeb, posted by octopusprime on June 6, 2004, at 12:43:06
It was hard to read those messages from last night. I knew I was messed up, but I didn't realize quite how badly. I'm not sure what half of the comments mean. I wouldn't want those to be the last words I ever said.
I understand about the police. I didn't last night, of course, but I thank you for looking over my shoulder for me. The police had no idea, though. After I finally let them in (they were pounding by the time I opened the door....how embarrassing to look back on), I dimmed the lights and sat down. I only spoke in monosyllables because I knew I wouldn't be able to talk properly. I remember saying my name was Sandra Wepper. That was when I knew I had better shut up. Anyways, they really weren't interested. They really only spent about 2 minutes with me. She made me verbally agree not to do anything to myself after they left. And then the 3 of them walked out. I can't imagine what would have happened if I'd gone to the hospital. I was really messed up.
I don't know what I may have said in Open last night. Please forgive me if I said anything wrong. I could hardly even read what was being typed.
I still can't believe last night. That must have been the closest yet. Now I know.
Again, I'm sorry for causing you any concern. I'm not even sure why I came to Babble last night, but I guess it turned out to be a life saver.
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on June 7, 2004, at 9:29:43
In reply to oh dear » SandyWeb, posted by octopusprime on June 6, 2004, at 12:43:06
Octopusprime - Just want to say thanks to you & any others for looking out for Sandy! I've been away from my computer since Thursday so I'm just getting caught up. What a relief you were reading and available to do something for her!!! You all are wonderful!
~ Lynne
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Sandy,
>
> are you feeling better this morning?
>
> listen we called the cops because we are concerned about you and we care.
>
> you have a lot on your plate right now and you need help.
>
> your children need a home, you need to find one for them. did you call any of the places i suggested to you?
>
> if you can't do this sandy, please go to the hospital. they will help keep you and your children safe.
>
> sandy i have said this to you before ... i think what you want is for the pain to stop, not for your life to stop. medications CAN help you get it together enough to find a job and a place to live. but first you have to decide to put YOU and your kids first. and accept the help as offered.
>
> i implore you sandy to consider going to the hospital.
>
> i'm sorry you're disappointed in the lack of response here but it's extremely difficult for all of us to help you when you refuse any and all attempts at help from professionals. please consider professional help.
>
> will email and post this message in case you really aren't checking the boards.
Posted by SandyWeb on June 7, 2004, at 11:38:32
In reply to Re: oh dear » octopusprime, posted by LynneDa on June 7, 2004, at 9:29:43
Reading those messages from the other night really is a reality check as to what I've been putting you through. It is such a cruel thing to do to you all. I guess I just needed to see the horrible position I've placed you all in. I don't even know what half of those sentences mean, and I can't imagine what I must have been doing in Open. I am so sorry.
I am going to leave you guys in peace now. It's time I left Babble. You have been so wonderful, but it's obvious that I have a real hard time accepting help. I don't know why. Something to do with my always having relied on myself, I guess. To accept help is almost equivalent to admitting yet another defeat. I don't know. But....it's not of your concern now. I just want you to know that everyone has been great. I am so sorry for the disruption in your lives. I understand you have difficulties of your own. I have been using you so cruelly.
I *promise* that I will not post anymore. I can hear the sighs of relief all over Babble-land. *smile* Thanks for putting up with me for so long. I'll think of you. Sorry for being such a jerk. I didn't realize.
Hugs to you all,
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on June 7, 2004, at 11:53:44
In reply to Sorry, posted by SandyWeb on June 7, 2004, at 11:38:32
Sandy -
Don't be ridiculous! You're not causing me any pain. We are all adults and are responsible for what we expose ourselves to or get involved in. Where else can you write the kind of stuff you did the other night and still be totally accepted like you are with all of us?!?!?!? :-) I hope that if I ever got to that point, I could continue posting too.I am really sorry about your current situation. And that you have a hard time accepting help. I do understand the block you feel inside yourself about it. Can you move it around in your mind that you're doing this for your kids?
Have you been able to make any phone calls to arrange housing? Do you have a case worker who can help you?
Also, can you just flush any and all drugs of any kind that you have in your house?!?!? If you're gonna do this on your own, you've got to take measures to keep yourself safe. Someone wrote you that they think you don't want to end your life . . . just the pain. I understand that - I think we all do! Please flush anything that could hurt you permanently. What if the stuff you take just fries your brain and you become disabled instead of dying?
I still want to hear from you. You have my email and phone number. Do not hesitate to use it, okay?????
~ Lynne
Posted by lonelygirl on June 7, 2004, at 11:58:40
In reply to Sorry, posted by SandyWeb on June 7, 2004, at 11:38:32
Sandy,
I'm sorry you feel that way about accepting help. Can you imagine what the world would be like without people helping one another? Sometimes you give, and sometimes you take -- and sometimes the more you take, the more you are able to give.
It's your decision whether to continue posting on Babble... But it's also everyone else's individual decisions whether to read your (or anyone's) posts. You never forced anyone to read or respond to your posts; we did because we wanted to. And you are always free to change your mind, and always welcome in Open if you ever feel like chatting in "real-time."
Posted by TRUCKER on June 7, 2004, at 13:29:01
In reply to Re: Sorry » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on June 7, 2004, at 11:53:44
dear sandy,
someone told me that the last couple of times that the police were called on you to help you and protect yourself and your kids from yourself was fake!!! is this true.. when the police were called this time this is what they said.. that it was fake and if you keep pulling this you will be facing charges... something to think about.. also what if childrens services find out.. how will you keep your kids? JUST WONDERING.
MEADBABYBUG
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> Sandy -
> Don't be ridiculous! You're not causing me any pain. We are all adults and are responsible for what we expose ourselves to or get involved in. Where else can you write the kind of stuff you did the other night and still be totally accepted like you are with all of us?!?!?!? :-) I hope that if I ever got to that point, I could continue posting too.
>
> I am really sorry about your current situation. And that you have a hard time accepting help. I do understand the block you feel inside yourself about it. Can you move it around in your mind that you're doing this for your kids?
>
> Have you been able to make any phone calls to arrange housing? Do you have a case worker who can help you?
>
> Also, can you just flush any and all drugs of any kind that you have in your house?!?!? If you're gonna do this on your own, you've got to take measures to keep yourself safe. Someone wrote you that they think you don't want to end your life . . . just the pain. I understand that - I think we all do! Please flush anything that could hurt you permanently. What if the stuff you take just fries your brain and you become disabled instead of dying?
>
> I still want to hear from you. You have my email and phone number. Do not hesitate to use it, okay?????
> ~ Lynne
>
Posted by TofuEmmy on June 7, 2004, at 17:46:35
In reply to Re: Sorry, posted by TRUCKER on June 7, 2004, at 13:29:01
Trucker - Sandy herself has posted at least once about the police threatening her with misdemeanor charges, so I'm sure she is aware of her situation.
Regardless of all the details, it is clear that Sandy is having a hard time right now. There are two sides to every story...at least!
As far as I'm concerned, this IS a support network, and that's what we are here to do.
Emmy
Posted by GARDENERGIRL on June 7, 2004, at 20:38:10
In reply to Re: Sorry » TRUCKER, posted by TofuEmmy on June 7, 2004, at 17:46:35
SANDY,
I COULD TELL FROM THE OTHER NIGHT AND CONTINUING, THAT YOU ARE REALLY HURTING. I WISH YOU WOULD ACCEPT HELP FROM THOSE WHO CAN HELP YOU. SOMETIMES I THINK PROBLEMS GET TOO BIG FOR BABBLE ALONE. THAT'S WHEN I THINK IT IS SO HELPFUL TO HAVE A PDOC OR A T. WOULD YOU CONSIDER "HIRING" A PROFESSIONAL TO HELP YOU OUT? YOU COULD CONSIDER THEM TO BE A COACH OR A CONSULTANT FOR YOU IN PROBLEM-SOLVING.
REGARDLESS, PLEASE TAKE CARE.
GG
Posted by gardenergirl on June 8, 2004, at 9:16:41
In reply to Re: Sorry, posted by GARDENERGIRL on June 7, 2004, at 20:38:10
Posted by michaelrobert123 on June 8, 2004, at 21:27:32
In reply to Re: Sorry » TRUCKER, posted by TofuEmmy on June 7, 2004, at 17:46:35
trucker is trying to be helpful. i think the help she gets here is preventing her from getting real help
Posted by trucker627 on June 8, 2004, at 22:20:58
In reply to And Another Thing Jlynne...., posted by SandyWeb on June 2, 2004, at 21:08:13
hey folks
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