Posted by susan47 on March 18, 2009, at 18:30:09
In reply to No, Silly Susan, posted by susan47 on September 27, 2008, at 19:50:12
One of the brightest diagnoses because it's Curable. From the first trauma of having someone say that to me, a professional, through the anxiety and the illnesses, to a small ray of hope. Seeing myself in other's eyes, people who will never know how crazy I actually got on this board, and in my mind, people who never have to see me the way my ex-T saw me, people who aren't afraid of me. That has to be the worst. Thinking about what my ex-T thinks of me, how he must be seeing me, the feelings he must have about me, most of all his necessity to keep me from feeling his forgiveness, his necessity to see me as Bad. I have to forget these things. I have to tell myself he won't hate me forever, and I am a good person, because I am. I am.
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