Posted by susan47 on July 31, 2006, at 19:26:05
In reply to Re: Ambivalence » Declan, posted by Joan797 on July 30, 2006, at 19:49:31
> I'd like to pretend that I woke up one day and found myself playing a character part in a bad dream, and therefore had absolutely no choice in the matter of my so called life.
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> However, I did make this bed. I made choices that I now later regret, but they were my choices all the same.
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> You know, I keep recalling the horrific fight we had on out honeymoon. And even before that, the multitude of times we broke up before we got married. Those were the clues I CHOSE to ignore.
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> This is my fault, and the realization of that is somehow my driving force to stay put. I did this to myself, so therefore, I deserve what I get.
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You took responsibility for the situation. Great.
Can you take responsibility for creating a new situation or do you want to live with what you got, forever? Do you want to change what you've got or what? What? What??? Maybe, feel helpless a little longer. Maybe, forever. Or maybe not. It's all choices, the whole damn thing, and when you feel helpless, making a choice is not easily done at all.. we Know That One... I think being with a therapist at that time really helped me do what I'd always known I had to do.
But waited so long, almost waited too long. I don't know. I don't know. When IS the right time?
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