Posted by Estella on May 6, 2006, at 22:00:11
In reply to Re: self hate » clearskies, posted by sunny10 on April 21, 2006, at 9:35:32
Sometimes I feel ugly. Thinking back I have thought I was ugly for most of my life. An occasional brief respite, an occasional point in time when I felt loved, loveable, beautiful. On the inside and the outside. But not anymore. Not for a long time. I feel broken and ugly and unloveable. But... It is a feeling. Just a feeling. It can be hard for us to believe that someone can see beyond the flaws that we detest. That someone can love in spite of them. That someone can grow to love them.
I don't know what to say.
But I understand about hating ones self. About hating ones body. It would be oh so nice to think that one day one could transcend ones body. Leave it behind forever. Unfortunately I don't have much hope. Unless you can do it in this lifetime. But it is hard. Oh so hard. And I guess it is only going to get worse :-(
poster:Estella
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